Happy New Yearrrrrr

It's just a few hours away before another year says goodbye, so I guess this is the right time to put this year into retrospect.

That's pretty much it

Leaving Pisay wasn't much of a relief; first year in UP was much harder than I thought it would be. Especially this semester. Plus, parting with close friends is tough, of course. Some went to Manila, and those that are with me in Diliman...well, UP is gigantic, I don't get to see much of them in campus. Add to that those horrible teachers.

But giving it a second thought...it wasn't that shitty though. Probably I'm just bad with transition phases, or reality is hitting me harder now that I've entered college. I still have my old buddies, and making new ones is really fun! Though I still think of stuff like "I want new college friends" or "I want to join orgs for friends," my blockmates were more than I could ask for. They're fun..and fun. And...ehe, ehe :")

Making a new year's resolutions list is bullshit. I never get to fulfill those either, so why spend time thinking about them. Well, of course that's just me. I'd rather do a life bucket list and get a journal. [Inspired by my mature friends :')] Idk what's the difference, but whatever.

Looking forward to a better year! Everyday is supposedly a new start, but, a new year is a much more special beginning, providing greater hopes for the coming days. Bring in the positive vibes!

Now that school is approaching, I better fix myself for the rest of the sem. But for now, I'm just gonna celebrate. Happy New Year!

Gutom na 'ko

Merry Christmas!

The refrigerator looked so lovely today. ♥

For the past few days I was thinking of Christmas wishes, but...they're more like to-do and not-to-do stuffs. I don't know if that makes me more mature, not thinking of material things...but whatever.

Merry Christmas!

A great end to the super stressful first quarter of da semesterr

Two days of just pure fun! Yayy.

My first UP lantern parade today! The parade itself was kind of not what I was expecting; I was a bit disappointed. Probably I expected too much, like, amazing floats and lights lights everywhere. But hey, t'was still fun! Mostly because of my awesome friends. No picture for now, no one has uploaded the pics yet.

1. Our one and only sky lantern who flew away to somewhere, someplace I hope that can fulfill my pretty shallow wish hihi.
2. Party crashing in Engg. Makes me want to shift out from CS.
3. Picnic mats! That looked like bathroom rags.
4. Johna!

And other stuff. Yayy, memorable lantern parade day!

Yesterday was equally fun! We went to SM Marikina and afterwards to QC Circle. Totally random places, but with awesome friends any place can get totally better.

1. SM Marikina's so near!
2. Flood scares, even though it wasn't raining

And in QC Circle! Circle of funnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn~

So excited for the ride; Sarah's and my face just shows...that.

That's me lying between life and death

Fountain!

I don't even want to talk about my near-death experience during that day. I was fighting hard to live okay. So much food was rising in my esophagus, luckily I managed to halt them. T'was just...horrifying.

HA GOOD THING I DIDN'T STUDY CHEM THAT MUCH. Or not. Pinapagaan ko lang loob ko.
Hahahahahahah pati Bio. KASI NAMAN. HALAMAN. DAHON LANG ANG DAMI PANG ALAM. Wala talagang kwenta 'pag minamarathon ang lessons.

So stressed right now. Chem's so difficult. I can't evennnn...ugh. I quit solving problems every 15 minutes to relax my brain, but I still can't solve almost half of them. I'm not even in the last topic yet - and that's the hardest part. At this rate, my brain won't function anymore when I resume studying again.

May Bio pa! I'm not sure if I still remember what I tried to learn early in the morning now that Chem is harrassing me. I stayed up 'til 7AM to finish all the lectures, because I started at 12. Okay my fault, but still....effort pa rin yun.

And I have a feeling that all of this effort will go to waste since tomorrow's exam will be so hard.

Moral of the story: Don't cram tons of lessons in one day.

In another story.....

I want a husky so bad. And a cat.

Just when I told twitter I'd be working on my chem....

I wish I woke up a bit early, like, 8AM early, so I can totally sing SUNDAY MORNING RAIN IS FALLINGGGGG. But no, I woke up at three and it wasn't the greatest feeling ever.

Last night, I suddenly missed high school, and it was the first time I meant it. The back lob, the railings, the caf, the field - all of those suddenly came flashing right before my eyes. Like I was gonna die right then and there. And even though I despised entering Pisay for the longest time, it still turned out to be one of the best four years of my life; meeting my most amazing friends and well, teachers.

High school is like extended grade school. We were still kids back then after all, although a bit older. Then the sudden transition to college felt like being pushed to the adult world, without any preparations, except the academic knowledge that will only prove useful for the first year...or not.

AND SIGHH. With all the work lined up for me today, I'll probably be laying my hands on them 'til tomorrow. Then I'll forget to actually celebrate my 17th year of existence. College, why can't you be a bit kinder.

• This terrible sleeping cycle of mine is totally taking a toll on my health. I'm feeling weaker and more unfocused each day. The area under my eyes feels tight, even though my eyebags are becoming a bit larger... Just not feeling perfectly healthy nowadays. 
• I did pretty bad in my last math quiz a.k.a as the second part of my first LE, where the bulk of the points are from since it's longer than the first one. The reasons? As always. Carelessness, and all the other shit.
• I hate the routine of getting up really early, going to boring classes that take forever to finish, go home and sleep, wake up and do requirements, then sleep late. 
• Then come weekends, the same thing: sleep late, wake up late, cram requirements.

 And here's a song I like because...well, it's a fun beat.

Birthday Celebration, Chem 17, Fanboying,, and...whatever

So...we celebrated Isko's birthday today with a dozen of cupcakes in a car parking area. Also, with nagging kids who wanted the cupcakes. And the Pepsi also. Hahaha t'was such a fun moment; us not wanting to give them the cupcakes while Carlo just trash-talking the children. Well not really trash-talking, just...the Carlo-way of spurting out words. I can't think of an exact word for it, so...that'll do for now.

With all the hype that happened today, I, again, entered my talkative/laugh-ative mood while traveling home with Pebs. Now, after releasing so much energy, I'm not in the mood to do Bio anymore.

And can I just say, Chem 17 isn't just difficult in the lessons aspect of it; the requirements kill also. #RDR

School-stuff aside, I'm obsessing over this cover for weeks already. I think I've seen all the videos Kelly singing this - just one of my favorite songs (and until now, I still haven't memorized the lyrics). She's been covering this song since 2009, and I'm sooo disappointed with myself seeing it just now.

Not the best quality, but it has the most views, so...whatever. K, Bio time!

My college life so far

Two weeks in I'm already hating second sem. Or probably I just naturally hate school.

1. 7am class every school day. I can't be late, or else, my teacher will deduct a point from my grade. He's boring, but oddly enough, I don't feel sleepy in his class. And I can't bring myself to hate him since he's old and seems to be so kind. I haven't understood a thing so far, aaaaand we have a quiz tomorrow. Such perfect situation.

2. I don't get to see my friends anymore :((

3. No lunch breaks :((

4. My Bio lec teacher is the most boring teacher ever.

5. I failed my first Chem quiz. I barely got a passing grade in the DG. Not that I really care, because last sem I've failed dozens of DGs but...such a great way to start the sem.

That pretty much sums up my second sem so far. Other teachers are just...okay, not really remarkable. I'm just looking forward to the Lantern Parade! 

I totally did something stupid. Immensely stupid. I'm hoping it won't go any wrong, but gah Justin why can't you be more focused and careful the next time. Wait, I think it won't go worse already. *Wew*

I've had so many experiences like this before, but I never, ever learned from those mistakes.  Anyway this post should've been something about my first week in school, for the second semester. Then with all those sudden tension I didn't know what to write anymore. But yeah, I'm not looking forward to much fun, because I don't like the subjects, I kinda don't like the teachers also (especially). Hopefully, those will change.

*_*

Sigh

So, the last day of my sem break has begun. Even though it was unproductive as my other vacations during the past years have been, I still don't want to let go. But, all good things come to an end, and sadly, my sembreak is one of them. :(

Tomorrow, and for the rest of this semester, I'll be facing Calculus every 7am, four days a week. All those four days wouldn't have lunch breaks, add to that I'd have to wear pants every school day. (Ugh lab)

jalkjgalgkajdglkjgalkgjadlkgjalkgjadlkgjalkjgalgjajglakj;l
1. New friends next sem! Please!
2. I won't even mention "I'll study na!" and "I'll be saving money for real" because those won't even probably happen.

Ayun. Wala mang nangyari sa sembreak ko, whatevs, ayoko pa ring pumasok :((

One to Five!

1 month 'til I mark 17 years of my existence.
2 Broke Girls is awesome! Definitely not for the conservative, but it's really funny. Or, probably I just love Kat Dennings to much.
3 months. Three months since I've started blogging irrelevant things to other people's life.
4 days before the semester starts. Sembreak, why u go by so fast. :((
5 hours of afternoon sleep isn't good, at all. But whatever, I won't be having this kind of lifestyle since school is about to start...again. :((

And most importantly....
50 days before Christmas!

Grades, grades, grades

Ito na yata yung moment na dapat nanghihinayang ako dahil hindi pa ako naging University Scholar,  konti na lang kasi, pero dalawang bagay ang pumasok sa utak ko:

• Hindi ko naman talaga in-expect na magiging College Scholar ako. Pero, well, nung dumarating yung grades ko tsaka ko narerealize na may chance pala. At ngayon, .0368 away ako from being a University Scholar. Isang step lang talaga sa kahit aling subject. :|
• First time kung makakuha ng ganitong GWA. HAHAHAHAHAHAH.

Kaya ayun, I felt happy for myself. Hahahahah I actually have something to be happy about for a week. Then I realize I know there's a huge chance my irresponsible self will still prevail the next semester, preventing me from maintaining this status. Add to that the fact I actually have to face my three most-hated subjects this coming semester: Calculus, Bio and a harder Chemistry. (I'm BS Chem btw)

Math classes every 7AM. Next sem. :(
And Pisay registrar gahh you totally just made me hate you. Well not really hate, like hate-hate. But uh, kinda hate. Or whatever. I don't know.

Guitar!

I changed the strings of my guitar to nylon ones, so it will become a bit softer and less painful for my  fingers.

After months of forgetting that I actually want to learn how to play guitar, I'll once again try to, hope this time I'll be more successful.

The problem now is...how will I tune it properly, now I completely changed the strings. @-)

Anyway, so far my hibernation plan doesn't seem to work out too well. I wasn't able to stay in the house for the past three days as much as I would love to, because, I went out with friends and PISAY DIDN'T GIVE MY FORM 137 TO UP. (!!!)

Gah hope they'll give it tomorrow, alreadyyyy. Kasi, medyo enrollment na next week. :|

HIBERNATION

Starts now.

A night of fun and embarassment

Sarah's grand debut celebration!
Details, soon, since I'm not in the mood to write now, but the title kinda says it all.
Camia love ♥

Random musings

• I feel like I'm the only one left using Firefox. 
• HIBERNATE! Starting next week. No going out or anything. Gonna spend some quality time with my bed ♥
• I'll be hiding in my house like how a vampire hides in his coffin during broad daylight.
• Well of course there are exceptions, but other than those, the main plan is to hibernate. Like a cute little bear.
• The previous three items are of the same topic, but...whatever.
• I had a dream some night ago that my mother was pregnant. It was...super, duper freaky. Considering how old she is.
• Ang sarap ng Hany. Yung chocnut! Hindi na pala white and red ang cover. Orange and red na. Amehahazing.
• I cry whenever I think of my schedule next sem. 7AM Calculus classes, Tuesday to Friday. I repeat. 7AM. CALCULUS. TUESDAY TO FRIDAY.
• Can teachers give the grades to CRS alreadyy
• Even though I don't want to go out, I really, really, want to see...a blockmate. Hahahahahahahah :|

It's kind of a funny story

I just finished watching this movie, and for the first time, I disagreed with RottenTomatoes.com's consensus about it. Well of course, different people, different opinions, but I was really able to relate with Craig, thus, I found the movie a lot more than "mildly entertaining."

I kind of get Craig's feeling about things. I get into sudden bouts of depression from time to time with apparently no deep reason. Of course, it doesn't mean there's no reason at all, but the small things that get to you could pile up and just put you into a situation where you'll go emo and feel suicidal (well, not really. Alam kong madalas kong sabihing gusto ko nang mamatay, pero, I really don't mean that)

But the bottomline is, people really need social capital (NUKS SOCIO 10 ♥) in order to get by life. People where you can really open up to and just be yourself. And another thing, you've just got to go for the things you'd really like. Seriously, if I have Craig's drawing ability and discovered it during my stay in Pisay, I'll totally get out of high school and go somewhere...art-sy.

Unfortunately, I don't have that. Add to that my inability to figure out what I really want to become, and what I am capable of doing. That thought just makes me depressed.

Sembreak!

Finally, the semester's over!!!! Time for some well-deserved break from school-stuff (as if I actually exerted lots of effort for that)

Well, there's still a couple of things left *ehem* Socio 10 *ehem, but hoo, haa, whatever, I'm just happy (almost) all of the shit are done.

For now, I'll just leave every mistake and crap that I did during the first semester, and just start over for the next one. I know I should be using the coming weeks to prepare for Chem 17 and yeah, but what, with my amazing procrastination skills and stellar irresponsibility, that's least likely to happen.

now forgetting:

• how i amazingly bombed this semester (too late to contemplate about)
• useless geology crap (takes too much brain space)
• and other humiliating things

And, yes! SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP

So where was the passion when you need it the most?

It's been a bad day for me. Well, yes, it's not the worst day that I had, but this is one of those irritating, frustrating, ajg;alkgj-ing days that I really hate.

It all started early in the morning, when my mom brought up a petty quarrel between us, the way she does most of the time. And the reason's sooooo shallow! Yet, I'm still the one at fault. Of course it's gonna be me, nothing new. Just when I wanted to bring in the good vibes for the Math long exam; she totally scrapped all those good vibes I've collected in the bathroom while taking a bath.

Second, well, Math long exam. Yeah I'd fail that. I had two items with no final answer, one item with an epicly crappy answer because I didn't know how to evaluate it further, all in a majorly trashy blue book as a whole.

Then I lost some amount of money...again.

And those little things that just make matters slightly worse!
A tricycle didn't notice me, and drove the other direction. I had to wait longer before another one arrived.
A stupid car parked right in front of our house, as if it's his house.
And all those other things that happened earlier but I just can't remember.

Okay, I just wanted to get these stuff out of my mind, so I can totally start with Geol, which I really know nothing about but we have a long exam tomorrow so I have to study.

College

Only one thing came across my mind, while looking back into the past five months of my first year -  college will be extremely tough. I know it's supposed to be common knowledge, but the magnitude of stress that I experience now totally caught me by surprise. I knew from the start that it won't be easy, but I didn't expect it to be this hard.

I've been trying to think of a reason why I seem to lack motivation to actually do better in studying, yet the only thing that I can actually deduce is that I dread of how uncertain I am of the path I'm currently taking. And even myself think that this is a bit shallow.

Sigh. Oh well. So much for finding a way to procrastinate.

;lkadhg;lakghaglh

CHEM EXAM!! lsajgalkgjalgkjdlk;ja

So, uh...my Math grade is low. My Chem grade seems to be worse than my Math. EVERYTHING'S SEEMS TO BE BAD.

Where was the Pisay advantage they were speaking of?
HOHOHOHO I knew from the start there's no such thing for me. Hehe

And another thing: MY UMBRELLA'S BROKEN. Huhuhuhu pa'no na 'yaaan

Hoodies. ♥

Today's timeline of events

1. Woke up at 12.
2. Went to school, arrived in Geol class a bit late. Surprisingly, it didn't even cross my mind to cut class.
3. Went straight to home afterwards.
4. Ate.
5. Tried to go to sleep, but can't. Probably because I've had lots of it during the past few days. Yet, it still feels like I lack sleep. Those sleepless nights must have been taking a toll on me. 
6. Went down, ate. Again.
7. And I am now typing this..boring crap.

To sum it up, t'was quite uneventful. 

But, can I just say, some people just look good in hoodies. Especially gray ones. Ehe ehe. Tang ina ang landi

I'll still be stuck with the Smart Bro + laptop combo during the following days. However, I can now use the PC, but, for a limited amount of time only. Apparently, there's a broken thingy inside and it should be fixed first before I can use it again, the way I used to. Huhuhuhuhuhuhuhu

Gah smartbro sucks forever

So, the computer's broken, no good internet, amazing weather, no classes (okay, don't get me wrong, this is a good thing.), what more could I ask for? :( I've been using this laptop since yesterday to...do stuff, but gljaldgjdalkgjalkgjaslk gah SmartBro just sucks deep.

I feel kinda lucky though, since our place wasn't affected by prolonged electric blackout. T'was like, oh shit my electric fan stopped working then after five minutes it started working again.

Anyway, I woke up at 4PM. FOUR P.M. And I promised myself I'll be productive this day. Immediately after I woke up I felt lazy, so I just sat in front of the television eating junk food. I haven't done that for...a long time. During these times, when there's no internet and stuff, TV is just the next best thing. Ang daming Koreano sa TV ngayon.

Up to this time though, I haven't done anything school-related. Hahahahahahah my procrastination skills never cease to amaze me.

In other news, I feel sad for UP . Hope there's not much damage to the already damaged buildings. And the trees!!! I wish the trees weren't uprooted. They are one of the best things in the campus.

Lastly, this one goes to the provinces that were severely affected by the storm. My prayers go to them.

Little things

Snatched from someone's tumblr. Can't remember from whom though.

Well, probably except for number 5. But still...this list is great.

Hmm

Why does waiting for the weekend to come feels like an eternity, but when it arrives, it goes by SO FREAKING FAST. I know it's just two days but LKJDSL;AJGLAD;JGALGJALGJADGJLA. And Monday doesn't even count, because even though I only have one class during Mondays, most of the time there are long exams, groupworks, makeup classes and other stuff that are scheduled during Mondays..so I don't even get to wake up late during that day. Hay.

Okay, so more or less half a month before the semester ends!! Hahahah I'm totally bombing my first semester. Dayuuuum. Like, seriously, I should fix everything in this coming days (EXAMS) if I really want to shift (to a course only God knows).

100 DAYS 'TIL CHRISTMAS

100 DAYS 'TIL CHRISTMAS
SEE THAT THINGY ON MY SIDEBAR? YEP, IT'S A COUNTDOWN!
Thanks to...Abby! And, uh..the website where that thingy came from.

Disclaimer: I'm not excited okay, I'm just...counting...down. :/
Wait, HAHAH Scratch that, I'm excited for Christmas, duh.

#sabaw

Suddenly remembered how my Comm 3 speech went. Yep, I bombed it. Well I'm used to messing up things, exams, practical exams, everything acad-related anyway, so...whatever. But t'was really funny. HAHAH rice.

Chem!

Wow, the past few weeks have been rough. :|

My Chem exam score is like....<///////////////////3

Nung first exam, nandito na eh. 'Yan oh. Tapos....
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Napunta pa dito. :|

Huhuhuhuh me and my katangahan forever, and ever, together. :| Bakit di na lang kami mag-break. :((

I need (want) a break

WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Since I'll probably wake everyone up if I shout as loud as I could, I thought I'll just do it here. 
Just need to clear my chest and draw some stuff out of my system. 
Gahh I'm starting to hate my life right now. 
Can someone help me get away from the city? Some place where it's bright, worry-free and non-polluted.

How I wish things just work the way I want it now; you ask then you receive. But, nope, the world won't stop and listen to my petty problems.


[emoooooo]

PE was really fun! And tiring! And...challenging! And it hurts too! I have scratches and stuff on my arms. Awesome way to start the school week.

Black Friday!

Nope, it's not a Friday today. This should've been posted yesterday, but I was too sleepy to move so I immediately went to sleep. Anyway, great party last night! Happy Birthday Carlo and...Pauline! :D
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Wow, even though I slept at around 12 midnight, I still woke up at 2:46PM. My body really knows when it's a weekend or not. #AwesomeBodyClock

Got some several stuff to do this weekend! The past two weeks haven't been so good to me. Exams, results, grades. Especially Math! Everyone have higher grades than me. I want to drop it and retake it next semester. But I'll probably be super delayed by then, so I just to have awesome grades in the following exams. I have yet to know what my Chem exam score is on Tuesday. After that, I'm hoping next week's gonna be better.

I should read my "Notes to self" post every time.

Notes to self

1. Cramming lots of lessons before dawn usually end with bad results. Even though it worked a couple of times doesn't prove it to be a good habit. Because it is proven to be a bad habit. Next time study for Math, Geol, Socio 10 and Chem, okay.
2. Fix your study habits. Get serious.
3. Learn to love college already. The first semester is about to end, y'know.
4. It's COLLEGE. People usually don't care about you. Especially Chem profs. Ahihi.
5. Believe that exams doesn't measure your proficiency in Math. Sometimes you get a low score because of lack of sleep. Well...except in Calculus and Trigonometry. Nonetheless, BELIEVE. Don't get bothered with low scores. Hahahahahahanooooo. (Right) :(
6. Have funnnn!! You have to have new college friends before the semester ends. Be FC. Be noisy in Comm 3 and PE. Your classmates in those subjects actually consider you an alien from a different world.

Stressful week

(This post is actually for September 3. But, uh, I just went online now, so...whatever.)
I just attended the Pisay Alumni Homecoming. Wow, alumni na alumni na talaga ako. College suckssssss.

Lots of freebees! I actually won minor raffle prizes...hmm let me see again. (Yep, I'm digging my bag right now)
1. Shampoo - I might use this.
2. Body powder - Probably I'll use this.
3. Shave Gel - I don't know what to do with this.

And just before the program started, I got a pair of slippers that doesn't fit me! Awesome. Anyway, I didn't even finish the whole event. Isko and I went to Trinoma after having dinner. Eat, and run.

JOHNA was there!! :) Haven't seen her for the longest time! Yayy.

I just have to say, this week's been soooo stressful. And it didn't even end yesterday; there's gonna be a Chem exam on Monday (BTW, I haven't studied a thing, I don't know anything at all. I usually just fight sleep during lecture periods.) then Chem practical test then the week after that there's gonna be our Comm 3 final exams. Apparently, it's not enough for the school to provide me with a major exam each day. Teachers just love to give exams.

Actually it shouldn't have been that stressful if I used the four-day weekend to study, but, well, I like to cram lengths of lessons in one...morning actually. I like to study after twelve. And me studying during that time does not usually end with good results. Especially if with Geol. God that exam was hard. But I regret NOTHING. Because I had to use that weekend to sleep.

WELCOME SEPTEMBER!!

-BER MONTHS!!

It's the time of the year again when everything seems to be on fast forward in preparation for the ultimate season of all -- my birthday! CHRISTMAS!!

I don't know, I'm a huge fan of Christmas. Not because of the gift-givings and stuff, just...because of the feeling, the spirit of it. There's something special during the season that makes people...I don't know. More kind? Not really. Basta. I can't exactly put my finger on it, but the thing is, there's something special, and I like it. ♥

And what better way to welcome the ber months than to have an hour of sleep for the day and Socio midterms! Ugh.

Can I just say, after that midterms, my love for Socio 10 just grew tenfold. Oo, ten talaga. And take note ah, love. Love...like this: ♥ *There's supposed to be a huge sarcasm sign here*

Here's Kelly's brand new single! Just released yesterday. 

  

Okay, now to stop procrastinating. I badly need to study for Geol...rawr, I overslept again. :|

God I'm such a bad student/kid

It's annoying (well, not really, I just can't think of an appropriate adjective) when I seriously try to study, but I just can't bring myself to focus. I mean, my eyes automatically drift away from any acads-related letters and numbers after 10 minutes.

When I try to solve some Math problems, minutes later I find myself drawing a girl's face hit by two arrows. In both eyes. Just this...afternoon, when I woke up, I went to read my Geol handouts but I freakin' fell asleep.

Notice I didn't mention any attempts to study for Socio 10. Hihihih. Shit problema rin 'yan...para bukas.

Therefore, I conclude, I have ADHD. That, or I just hate studying.

WAIT, WHAT. THE LONG WEEKEND IS ALMOST OVER.

Why so faaaast?

So...let me check what I did during the past four days.

1. Sleep 
2. Rest
3. Eat
4. Rest
5. Sleep

Of course in-between I surf the internet.
Oh, there were also attempts to study.*

*Refer to first three paragraphs.

In other news, they changed my bed! The bed from the other room was transferred to mine. That's..I don't know, probably that's good news.

Wait, that's not actually the significant thing about that. Since my father had to intrude inside my bedroom, he found my stash of...trash. But, still, he wasn't able to force me to clean it. HAHAH. I said, "kailangan kong mag-aral, wala akong time." Echosss. =))

Shit, I'm forgetting I have to get a decent score na tomorrow sa Math!!! Ang pangit talaga ng 1st exam score ko. :|

Procrastinashuun

Long Weekend, Day 2.

[]Math []Geol []Socio 10

:(

We have the same favorite movies!!! Aheheh. ♥

Dark circles!

I AM SOOO LOOKING FORWARD TO THE LONG WEEKEND ALREADY!!!

Although next week's gonna be my hell week. I'll be having an exam each day...and add to that the Chem long exam next, next Monday. :| COLLEGE!! As if naman I haven't been in this kind of situation during high school.

Anyway, my body clock is getting worse. I always fall asleep everytime I get home from school, then wake up at around 8pm, then sleep at around 3am, then wake up at 6. Sometimes, I'd wake up at 10pm, then I won't nearly sleep at all. Hay.

Actually, I just thought about this when I went inside the CR a few minutes ago. I saw the dark circles under my eyes...getting darker.

ADKGJALGJADGLKJ MATH QUIZ EARLIER WAS SHIT.
Wait, no, my answers were shit. I could've gotten a...decently high score (doesn't make any sense) if I wasn't stupid. Simple stuff really gets me.

Mangongopya na nga lang ng given, mali pa. Magmumultiply na nga lang, mali pa. Magfafactor na nga lang, mali pa. :( ALDJGDLAKGJDAL;SJ

-_-

45 mins. of sleep the night before, groupworks in the morning and a tiring PE in the afternoon doesn't go well together.

Yep, t'was a quite a busy day.

And the best part of it all? I think I need to study Chem for tomorrow. But I'm SOO not in the mood~
Plus, I can't just go to sleep, because of online group discussions...that's obviously not going anywhere.

Hmmm. That's just about it.

It's raining pretty hard!!! Wala nang pasok please! :(

My lazy weekend and a cockroach

T'was an unproductive weekend...again. I didn't bother to do anything school-related, except asking Ronny if there are requirements. Well, he replied, "Ewan." That translates well to "Nothing." At least for me.

The truth is, I should be studying for the Socio midterms.  Like, really, should, because I haven't absorbed any significant information, other than the word penecola. Btw, that's synonymous with porn. Y'know...penetration + pelicola. Hihihi. Plus, my notes are with Kim. But actually, that's not an excuse since the readings are online.

Oo, kinailangan ng stress sa "s". Kasi andami-dami nila. ANGDAMINILAAAA. :(

Anyway, I feel like there's something in Chem that is required to be done but I just don't know what it is. Or probably I kind of know, but I'm just ignoring it because I don't want to do anything.

In other news, I don't want to go to school tomorrow. :( Usually, I can wake up at 1pm every Monday, but because of groupworks I have to wake up earlyy. :( I'm really sad :( Huhuhuhuh. :(

By the way, I'd like to talk about cockroaches.

It's a bad idea to search "cockroaches" in Google Image Search

Another one intruded my really messy room last night. Truthfully, I bet there's more of them hiding in the corners somewhere, because...I haven't cleaned my room in ages.

Cockroaches are the nastiest things on Earth. I'll never bring myself to love them. When one comes up before bedtime, I will not sleep until I kill that damn piece of brown thingy. Wala akong pakielam kahit masira ang food chain, mamatay na lahat ang mga ipis sa mundo. LAHAAAAT. Peste.

Tugs tugs tugs tugs

I just got home from Katips Bar. I totally didn't expect that it would be that...kind of wild. I was just only looking forward to a concert, with some people drinking alcohol. But nooo...it was a party, with some average to kind-of-shitty bands.

Anyway, a handful of realizations struck me during the event:

1. Pebs is a different person when he's drunk. I got a bit surprised.
2. I actually had a pretty significant number of shots (for me), but they just hit me when I met my father in McDo. So...that means, my tummy's getting stronger. Although I wouldn't want to get used to drinking. :| Because, you know, it's bad for my health.
3. I thought I've already gotten over with something, but...actually, sadly, no.

I just had real fun before the event, when I had a chance to talk with other IE people. They were happy and interesting people. And one person looked like Kristine! I still can't get over how they looked strikingly similar. (Nope, this is not #3)

We did a bit of Comm 3 earlier. Sharing. T'was...a bit fun. I got to see the real Oble statue! Thanks groupmate! :)

This post is...really sabaw. Because I'm still a bit dizzy. I just need to blog this.

Tomorrow's gonna be so exciting...

...actually not really. Because of afternoon suspensions due to ACLE and a free Chem period caused by Doc Q's amazingly fast-paced lectures that leaves us clueless (everytime) of what we're talking about, Math 17 is my only subject tomorrow. So that means...I'm free already by 9:45AM. I have nothing to do after that. Oh, wait, right, I'll be meeting my Comm 3 groupmates. But I'll probably just ditch that.

Well, I'm thinking about going to this event:

But it's really late already, and I haven't asked permission from my parents yet. I doubt they'll permit me to go though, so...whatever.

Anyway...

Last night was my first time to watch this! 

It's a really cute picture :")

And it automatically went to the list of my favorite movies! Well, actually I really don't have one, since I've only watched a small number of films...but, really, I liked this one. It's funny and sad and romantic and...sad. But the ending was quite optimistic though.

I just noticed, I've been putting quite shitty stuff here. :)) And I promised this blog will be better than my previous one. HAHAHAH

=))

This just put me in the mood. Well, not to study, just...in the mood. =))

And for more awesomeness: http://peballs.tumblr.com/
That tumblr's not mine, sharing. :D

Somebody save meee

I'm supposed to be studying Chem and Math now, but here I am, blogging my hatred towards the thought of studying concepts that won't even have much importance in real life, other than it's a requirement for me to fucking graduate and have a decent fucking job.

I HATE STUDYING.

Seems like my laziness doubled when I got into college. Apparently, my realization that I'm already in college, as well as IT'S-SCHOOL-TIME-ALREADY-SO-GO-STUDY-NOW feeling takes a little more time to hit me than expected.

Or probably I'm just lazy. Like, really lazy. Bad student-type of laziness.

Anyway, I really need to study. So enough ranting.

LKAJLDJLAKDSGJALSKDJGLKJGL.

Hm, isn't it obvious that I'm in a bad mood? Hihih.
Actually, I'm just tired.  
Right.

So...what's up?

This day was quite uneventful. So let's just share some music!!

Well, I only know a few artists actually, so I'm not qualified to be a music geek though. 

This song's been stuck in my head for the past few days. Y'know the song MYX plays in between commercials during the Daily Top Ten? That one.

It's called Linger by The Cranberries. T'was a phenomenal song during the 90s. Sometimes I wish I grew up during the 90s. Mainstream music nowadays is just...bleh, too repetitive. Anyway, here's the song!. Ehe, ehe. It's pretty sad actually, the light-hearted rhythm just covers its meaning.

But currently, I'm so into Kelly Clarkson! Hahah. Actually I thought about this post because of Amanda. We're talking about her yesterday.

Okay, okay. I know KC's kinda mainstream, but she's an excellent singer. Her unpopular songs from her albums are better than her singles. Well, isn't it usually like that with most albums.

This one is from My December. Great lyrics.

But the main thing that got me into her is her live performances! Seriously. She's just the best. She can sing lots of genres. She's done country, rock, pop, indie, jazz...whatever.

This vide just shows a wee bit of her greatness. She's actually young there (Haha obviously, she's pretty chubby now.)

And this should make Taylor Swift quit as a singer and just stick to being a songwriter.

 

I just realized, there's still a lot of artists I'd go fanboy-ing about. But imma just get to that some other time. I kinda feel sleepy now. 

I hope tomorrow's gonna be more interesting.

I'm hungry

The title has got nothing do with this post, but it's true, I'm hungry. I want kwek-kwek.

People were a bit low today, including me. Math was sabaw...as always. Okay, I don't want to get started with my Math score. We got it yesterday. But, t'was better than expected. Although my mistakes...RAWRRRR.

Moving on, as I was saying, people were a bit low today. Well probably it's just me, I don't know. We weren't in our...normal, fun, spirits. Like Pebs, he's kind of sleepy the whole Socio 10 period.

BTW, Titos gave a suprise quiz! Like...we were really surprised. I didn't what to do actually, I just...guessed stuff. HAHAH. Sabi na nga ba eh, I should've studied last night/earlier in the morning. But, I wanted to sleep already, so...whatever.

Okay, I'm starting to worry about our video project for PE. Well, worry for myself, no one's informing me when and where our meetings/tapings are. Or if there are. Ehh, dapat talaga magbago na 'koooo. I'm like the "weird guy" in PE...as well in Comm 3. :))

I'm getting really hungry now. Must get food~

Poor right hand

I'm almost done with my scrapbook for Comm 3...finally!! I just felt like blogging it. I don't care already if it looks and contains crap, I just need to be able to finish it on time. Ha, my poor right hand's working on it for like...3 or 4 hours. Add to that the hours I worked for this yesterday. My right hand's just...sore. :| Actually I'm typing this entry using my left hand. Just saying.

Hm, I'm inexplicably low deep inside all throughout yesterday. I...don't know why.

Math results later!! Actually, as of now, I don't really care. Probably later, when I see it. But for now, chill.

It's almost 3AM. Oh well, must finish this thing now, then sleep!

Tired

Had a pretty tiring day...yesterday, since it's already 12:31 AM. Actually, to think of it, it's not really that tiring. I just don't know why I felt really tired when I got home. Anyway!

• Met my Comm 3 partner already! It was a bit awkard, but generally t'was okay. In the middle of our "conversation," (she was the one initiating the conversation, I just answered her questions. Haha, shy-type kasi ako.) her friend showed up and sat with us. I was like: "Thank you! Hindi na siya mabo-bore." 
• Meh, our PE was a bit tiring. Agawan base! Although I didn't actually...participate in the second part of it. Hihi. As I said earlier, shy-type kasi ako.
• Then my teammates filmed a wee bit of our video project in someone's house. We walked some distance from the gym, okay. But that walk was actually interesting, I went to places that I didn't know that existed...there were residential areas! And the track oval...that didn't actually have a track. I just realized, UP is way bigger than I thought.
• Stupid of me, I chose to do something that is difficult to be done in a night. My idea for the Comm 3 scrapbook was to create a storybook, since I didn't have pictures to put...and I chose to hand write it. And as I was doing the first page, I realized, I'm screwed. 12 pages - and that was the thinnest scrapbook I could find in NBS. alkja;lgj.

Ehh, I felt like putting paragraphs into bullets. Kshared.

Random stuff while trying to put myself to sleep

I'm supposed to be doing Chem-related stuff right now, but...meh. I can't. I'm so not in the mood to do anything after I've had my haircut earlier! Putashet, sabi ko, "Trim lang po." Ayun, so...cut, cut, cut. Since I didn't have my glasses on, I never really had a clear view of what's going on. In my mind, I was like: "Huhuhuh, trim lang po." Ayun, he shortened it too much. Dammit.

In other news, me and my Comm 3 date will finally meet later! So in time for the scrapbook's deadline on Wednesday. I still don't have an idea of what'll happen later, but, eh, I bet it's gonna be dull and boring since I'm weird when meeting new people.

In other, other news I don't wanna know my Math exam score on Tuesday! Can we just skip that day? I don't like Tuesdays and Thursdays anyway. I'll just drown myself into my own insecurities of finding out that everyone has a higher score than me. I'll be really, really depressed by then. I mean, two bad scores in a row! I suck. Math and I shall never get along. Ever.

OR PROBABLY, I should just get over it and move on after seeing my score. Imma just look forward to the next four tests, including the final exam.I'll be killing those to get a 1.75. Yes, that's my target Math grade. Haha.

OR MY LAST OPTION is to just commit suicide, just like what others did in Ma'am Arrianne's stories. Instant way to escape from the shallow problems that continue to consume my mind.

Okay, I should just put these thoughts, and others, to rest. I must sleep nao.

First post!

Okay, so I have another blog. Isn't it amazingggg?

I felt the urge to make another one, well, because, y'know, I'm a writer. :)) I ♥ Sir Castro, kaya. Hello! Okay kidding.

So much has happened in college already, and I just want to tell people how depressed I am. Still the same problems, y'know...Math. Yes Math! And I thought I wouldn't worry about that evil subject anymore...at least for this semester. Not that I'm failing, but I'm just frustrated, knowing I can actually do better than what I'm currently doing. I mean, everyone's getting a higher score than me. I know these stuff already, why can't I get a good score! I try to study naman...note the word "try." I know what to do, but when long exams come, I fail...miserably. I don't know, probably it's just my inherent hatred for Math or because of my body clock getting worse, resulting to my brain floating in the middle of nothingness every morning.

Hey Lorenz, if by any chance you're gonna read this, you won't be my human outlet for Math depression anymore, since I have a blog already! Haha.

Well besides Math, I've got other thoughts too...but anyway, let's talk about this blog! See, now I got a bit more creative with the URL! Far from "mjgc2009." And I'm using blogspot now! It's a lot different from wordpress. Okay, I borrowed "brushfire stories" from Jack Johnson's album "Brushfire Fairytales." Then, I figured I won't be telling fairytales anyway, so I made it brushfiretales. But t'was taken already, so i changed it to brushfirestories. See! The origin is so...deep. Because y'know, I'm a writer. A journalist trained by no other than Sir Castro.

Imma make this blog better than my previous one! Really. Hahah.

And by the way, I miss Pisay.

P.S. I'm getting a haircut later! Gonna go pray now.