God I'm such a bad student/kid

It's annoying (well, not really, I just can't think of an appropriate adjective) when I seriously try to study, but I just can't bring myself to focus. I mean, my eyes automatically drift away from any acads-related letters and numbers after 10 minutes.

When I try to solve some Math problems, minutes later I find myself drawing a girl's face hit by two arrows. In both eyes. Just this...afternoon, when I woke up, I went to read my Geol handouts but I freakin' fell asleep.

Notice I didn't mention any attempts to study for Socio 10. Hihihih. Shit problema rin 'yan...para bukas.

Therefore, I conclude, I have ADHD. That, or I just hate studying.

WAIT, WHAT. THE LONG WEEKEND IS ALMOST OVER.

Why so faaaast?

So...let me check what I did during the past four days.

1. Sleep 
2. Rest
3. Eat
4. Rest
5. Sleep

Of course in-between I surf the internet.
Oh, there were also attempts to study.*

*Refer to first three paragraphs.

In other news, they changed my bed! The bed from the other room was transferred to mine. That's..I don't know, probably that's good news.

Wait, that's not actually the significant thing about that. Since my father had to intrude inside my bedroom, he found my stash of...trash. But, still, he wasn't able to force me to clean it. HAHAH. I said, "kailangan kong mag-aral, wala akong time." Echosss. =))

Shit, I'm forgetting I have to get a decent score na tomorrow sa Math!!! Ang pangit talaga ng 1st exam score ko. :|

Procrastinashuun

Long Weekend, Day 2.

[]Math []Geol []Socio 10

:(

We have the same favorite movies!!! Aheheh. ♥

Dark circles!

I AM SOOO LOOKING FORWARD TO THE LONG WEEKEND ALREADY!!!

Although next week's gonna be my hell week. I'll be having an exam each day...and add to that the Chem long exam next, next Monday. :| COLLEGE!! As if naman I haven't been in this kind of situation during high school.

Anyway, my body clock is getting worse. I always fall asleep everytime I get home from school, then wake up at around 8pm, then sleep at around 3am, then wake up at 6. Sometimes, I'd wake up at 10pm, then I won't nearly sleep at all. Hay.

Actually, I just thought about this when I went inside the CR a few minutes ago. I saw the dark circles under my eyes...getting darker.

ADKGJALGJADGLKJ MATH QUIZ EARLIER WAS SHIT.
Wait, no, my answers were shit. I could've gotten a...decently high score (doesn't make any sense) if I wasn't stupid. Simple stuff really gets me.

Mangongopya na nga lang ng given, mali pa. Magmumultiply na nga lang, mali pa. Magfafactor na nga lang, mali pa. :( ALDJGDLAKGJDAL;SJ

-_-

45 mins. of sleep the night before, groupworks in the morning and a tiring PE in the afternoon doesn't go well together.

Yep, t'was a quite a busy day.

And the best part of it all? I think I need to study Chem for tomorrow. But I'm SOO not in the mood~
Plus, I can't just go to sleep, because of online group discussions...that's obviously not going anywhere.

Hmmm. That's just about it.

It's raining pretty hard!!! Wala nang pasok please! :(

My lazy weekend and a cockroach

T'was an unproductive weekend...again. I didn't bother to do anything school-related, except asking Ronny if there are requirements. Well, he replied, "Ewan." That translates well to "Nothing." At least for me.

The truth is, I should be studying for the Socio midterms.  Like, really, should, because I haven't absorbed any significant information, other than the word penecola. Btw, that's synonymous with porn. Y'know...penetration + pelicola. Hihihi. Plus, my notes are with Kim. But actually, that's not an excuse since the readings are online.

Oo, kinailangan ng stress sa "s". Kasi andami-dami nila. ANGDAMINILAAAA. :(

Anyway, I feel like there's something in Chem that is required to be done but I just don't know what it is. Or probably I kind of know, but I'm just ignoring it because I don't want to do anything.

In other news, I don't want to go to school tomorrow. :( Usually, I can wake up at 1pm every Monday, but because of groupworks I have to wake up earlyy. :( I'm really sad :( Huhuhuhuh. :(

By the way, I'd like to talk about cockroaches.

It's a bad idea to search "cockroaches" in Google Image Search

Another one intruded my really messy room last night. Truthfully, I bet there's more of them hiding in the corners somewhere, because...I haven't cleaned my room in ages.

Cockroaches are the nastiest things on Earth. I'll never bring myself to love them. When one comes up before bedtime, I will not sleep until I kill that damn piece of brown thingy. Wala akong pakielam kahit masira ang food chain, mamatay na lahat ang mga ipis sa mundo. LAHAAAAT. Peste.

Tugs tugs tugs tugs

I just got home from Katips Bar. I totally didn't expect that it would be that...kind of wild. I was just only looking forward to a concert, with some people drinking alcohol. But nooo...it was a party, with some average to kind-of-shitty bands.

Anyway, a handful of realizations struck me during the event:

1. Pebs is a different person when he's drunk. I got a bit surprised.
2. I actually had a pretty significant number of shots (for me), but they just hit me when I met my father in McDo. So...that means, my tummy's getting stronger. Although I wouldn't want to get used to drinking. :| Because, you know, it's bad for my health.
3. I thought I've already gotten over with something, but...actually, sadly, no.

I just had real fun before the event, when I had a chance to talk with other IE people. They were happy and interesting people. And one person looked like Kristine! I still can't get over how they looked strikingly similar. (Nope, this is not #3)

We did a bit of Comm 3 earlier. Sharing. T'was...a bit fun. I got to see the real Oble statue! Thanks groupmate! :)

This post is...really sabaw. Because I'm still a bit dizzy. I just need to blog this.

Tomorrow's gonna be so exciting...

...actually not really. Because of afternoon suspensions due to ACLE and a free Chem period caused by Doc Q's amazingly fast-paced lectures that leaves us clueless (everytime) of what we're talking about, Math 17 is my only subject tomorrow. So that means...I'm free already by 9:45AM. I have nothing to do after that. Oh, wait, right, I'll be meeting my Comm 3 groupmates. But I'll probably just ditch that.

Well, I'm thinking about going to this event:

But it's really late already, and I haven't asked permission from my parents yet. I doubt they'll permit me to go though, so...whatever.

Anyway...

Last night was my first time to watch this! 

It's a really cute picture :")

And it automatically went to the list of my favorite movies! Well, actually I really don't have one, since I've only watched a small number of films...but, really, I liked this one. It's funny and sad and romantic and...sad. But the ending was quite optimistic though.

I just noticed, I've been putting quite shitty stuff here. :)) And I promised this blog will be better than my previous one. HAHAHAH

=))

This just put me in the mood. Well, not to study, just...in the mood. =))

And for more awesomeness: http://peballs.tumblr.com/
That tumblr's not mine, sharing. :D

Somebody save meee

I'm supposed to be studying Chem and Math now, but here I am, blogging my hatred towards the thought of studying concepts that won't even have much importance in real life, other than it's a requirement for me to fucking graduate and have a decent fucking job.

I HATE STUDYING.

Seems like my laziness doubled when I got into college. Apparently, my realization that I'm already in college, as well as IT'S-SCHOOL-TIME-ALREADY-SO-GO-STUDY-NOW feeling takes a little more time to hit me than expected.

Or probably I'm just lazy. Like, really lazy. Bad student-type of laziness.

Anyway, I really need to study. So enough ranting.

LKAJLDJLAKDSGJALSKDJGLKJGL.

Hm, isn't it obvious that I'm in a bad mood? Hihih.
Actually, I'm just tired.  
Right.

So...what's up?

This day was quite uneventful. So let's just share some music!!

Well, I only know a few artists actually, so I'm not qualified to be a music geek though. 

This song's been stuck in my head for the past few days. Y'know the song MYX plays in between commercials during the Daily Top Ten? That one.

It's called Linger by The Cranberries. T'was a phenomenal song during the 90s. Sometimes I wish I grew up during the 90s. Mainstream music nowadays is just...bleh, too repetitive. Anyway, here's the song!. Ehe, ehe. It's pretty sad actually, the light-hearted rhythm just covers its meaning.

But currently, I'm so into Kelly Clarkson! Hahah. Actually I thought about this post because of Amanda. We're talking about her yesterday.

Okay, okay. I know KC's kinda mainstream, but she's an excellent singer. Her unpopular songs from her albums are better than her singles. Well, isn't it usually like that with most albums.

This one is from My December. Great lyrics.

But the main thing that got me into her is her live performances! Seriously. She's just the best. She can sing lots of genres. She's done country, rock, pop, indie, jazz...whatever.

This vide just shows a wee bit of her greatness. She's actually young there (Haha obviously, she's pretty chubby now.)

And this should make Taylor Swift quit as a singer and just stick to being a songwriter.

 

I just realized, there's still a lot of artists I'd go fanboy-ing about. But imma just get to that some other time. I kinda feel sleepy now. 

I hope tomorrow's gonna be more interesting.

I'm hungry

The title has got nothing do with this post, but it's true, I'm hungry. I want kwek-kwek.

People were a bit low today, including me. Math was sabaw...as always. Okay, I don't want to get started with my Math score. We got it yesterday. But, t'was better than expected. Although my mistakes...RAWRRRR.

Moving on, as I was saying, people were a bit low today. Well probably it's just me, I don't know. We weren't in our...normal, fun, spirits. Like Pebs, he's kind of sleepy the whole Socio 10 period.

BTW, Titos gave a suprise quiz! Like...we were really surprised. I didn't what to do actually, I just...guessed stuff. HAHAH. Sabi na nga ba eh, I should've studied last night/earlier in the morning. But, I wanted to sleep already, so...whatever.

Okay, I'm starting to worry about our video project for PE. Well, worry for myself, no one's informing me when and where our meetings/tapings are. Or if there are. Ehh, dapat talaga magbago na 'koooo. I'm like the "weird guy" in PE...as well in Comm 3. :))

I'm getting really hungry now. Must get food~

Poor right hand

I'm almost done with my scrapbook for Comm 3...finally!! I just felt like blogging it. I don't care already if it looks and contains crap, I just need to be able to finish it on time. Ha, my poor right hand's working on it for like...3 or 4 hours. Add to that the hours I worked for this yesterday. My right hand's just...sore. :| Actually I'm typing this entry using my left hand. Just saying.

Hm, I'm inexplicably low deep inside all throughout yesterday. I...don't know why.

Math results later!! Actually, as of now, I don't really care. Probably later, when I see it. But for now, chill.

It's almost 3AM. Oh well, must finish this thing now, then sleep!

Tired

Had a pretty tiring day...yesterday, since it's already 12:31 AM. Actually, to think of it, it's not really that tiring. I just don't know why I felt really tired when I got home. Anyway!

• Met my Comm 3 partner already! It was a bit awkard, but generally t'was okay. In the middle of our "conversation," (she was the one initiating the conversation, I just answered her questions. Haha, shy-type kasi ako.) her friend showed up and sat with us. I was like: "Thank you! Hindi na siya mabo-bore." 
• Meh, our PE was a bit tiring. Agawan base! Although I didn't actually...participate in the second part of it. Hihi. As I said earlier, shy-type kasi ako.
• Then my teammates filmed a wee bit of our video project in someone's house. We walked some distance from the gym, okay. But that walk was actually interesting, I went to places that I didn't know that existed...there were residential areas! And the track oval...that didn't actually have a track. I just realized, UP is way bigger than I thought.
• Stupid of me, I chose to do something that is difficult to be done in a night. My idea for the Comm 3 scrapbook was to create a storybook, since I didn't have pictures to put...and I chose to hand write it. And as I was doing the first page, I realized, I'm screwed. 12 pages - and that was the thinnest scrapbook I could find in NBS. alkja;lgj.

Ehh, I felt like putting paragraphs into bullets. Kshared.

Random stuff while trying to put myself to sleep

I'm supposed to be doing Chem-related stuff right now, but...meh. I can't. I'm so not in the mood to do anything after I've had my haircut earlier! Putashet, sabi ko, "Trim lang po." Ayun, so...cut, cut, cut. Since I didn't have my glasses on, I never really had a clear view of what's going on. In my mind, I was like: "Huhuhuh, trim lang po." Ayun, he shortened it too much. Dammit.

In other news, me and my Comm 3 date will finally meet later! So in time for the scrapbook's deadline on Wednesday. I still don't have an idea of what'll happen later, but, eh, I bet it's gonna be dull and boring since I'm weird when meeting new people.

In other, other news I don't wanna know my Math exam score on Tuesday! Can we just skip that day? I don't like Tuesdays and Thursdays anyway. I'll just drown myself into my own insecurities of finding out that everyone has a higher score than me. I'll be really, really depressed by then. I mean, two bad scores in a row! I suck. Math and I shall never get along. Ever.

OR PROBABLY, I should just get over it and move on after seeing my score. Imma just look forward to the next four tests, including the final exam.I'll be killing those to get a 1.75. Yes, that's my target Math grade. Haha.

OR MY LAST OPTION is to just commit suicide, just like what others did in Ma'am Arrianne's stories. Instant way to escape from the shallow problems that continue to consume my mind.

Okay, I should just put these thoughts, and others, to rest. I must sleep nao.

First post!

Okay, so I have another blog. Isn't it amazingggg?

I felt the urge to make another one, well, because, y'know, I'm a writer. :)) I ♥ Sir Castro, kaya. Hello! Okay kidding.

So much has happened in college already, and I just want to tell people how depressed I am. Still the same problems, y'know...Math. Yes Math! And I thought I wouldn't worry about that evil subject anymore...at least for this semester. Not that I'm failing, but I'm just frustrated, knowing I can actually do better than what I'm currently doing. I mean, everyone's getting a higher score than me. I know these stuff already, why can't I get a good score! I try to study naman...note the word "try." I know what to do, but when long exams come, I fail...miserably. I don't know, probably it's just my inherent hatred for Math or because of my body clock getting worse, resulting to my brain floating in the middle of nothingness every morning.

Hey Lorenz, if by any chance you're gonna read this, you won't be my human outlet for Math depression anymore, since I have a blog already! Haha.

Well besides Math, I've got other thoughts too...but anyway, let's talk about this blog! See, now I got a bit more creative with the URL! Far from "mjgc2009." And I'm using blogspot now! It's a lot different from wordpress. Okay, I borrowed "brushfire stories" from Jack Johnson's album "Brushfire Fairytales." Then, I figured I won't be telling fairytales anyway, so I made it brushfiretales. But t'was taken already, so i changed it to brushfirestories. See! The origin is so...deep. Because y'know, I'm a writer. A journalist trained by no other than Sir Castro.

Imma make this blog better than my previous one! Really. Hahah.

And by the way, I miss Pisay.

P.S. I'm getting a haircut later! Gonna go pray now.