Merry Christmas!

Whatever killed my Christmas spirit this year, I hate you. Because now, Christmas feels like the same with any other day, except for the abundance of oh so healthy foods everywhere. (no complaining here)

And why do people find it hard to give gifts to teenagers agjalkgj GAH. People don't give me money anymore; it's not like I already have a job y'know.

Feelings, thoughts, more feelings, more thoughts WOOHOO I SURVIVED DOOMSDAY

I don't even know why I own a twitter account when I have A BLOG full of ONE LINERS idk why I emphasized those words I just felt like emphasizing them

Woahshit it's almost Christmas

The world isn't actually sure if it'll make it to Christmas, as it has December 21 to worry about, but if it will, it'll just be six days before I could celebrate the holidays as an adult!! (As if declaring that would make any difference.)

Does being an adult really suppress the excitement of the Christmas season? With all the fuss and stress that happened during the past weeks, any celebration, along with acads, was at the bottom of my priority list. All I want to do now is just roll myself into a human burrito and sleep 'til its mealtime.

FINALLY

FINALLY AN OFFICIAL MEMBER OF THE UP CHEMICAL SOCIETY.

It's been a long and difficult process, pero shet natapos ko siya.

BEST APP BITCHEZ

I don't really get how other people like to bloat up problems or be way too emotional about things. Or  probably I'm just way too simple-minded and immature to actually feel empathy to this kind of emotions and dilemmas. Of course I won't tell you this, so I'll just listen to your rants. Pero sana marealize mo na simpleng sorry lang naman, tapos na 'yan. O kahit indirect na sorry bilang mahirap naman talagang isantabi ang pride minsan.

Finding time for sleep, homeworks and other people got a lot harder since the start of the school year. Can all of these stuff be done already so I can finally have some time for those.

First day of classes

The moment Kelly Clarkson comes out with a soul-esque/blues album and Oasis, by some sort of a miracle, comes out with...just a new album I'd probably, just probably, pass out with so much joy.

I know, the post and the title doesn't really have any sort of connection. But I don't really have much to say about the first day of the second semester since I didn't quite pay attention to anything.

AYOKO PANG PUMASOK BUKAS PUTRAGIS

READ THE TITLE WITH PASSION. WITH SO MUCH PASSION.

Slept at 7am, woke up at 5pm

 Still haven't fixed my room. -_-

YES I AM SO PREPARED FOR THE COMING SEMESTER.


Good job, self.

Conversations with my mother

Ako: Tinatamad pa akong pumasok :(

Mommy: Sige, 'wag ka muna mag-enroll.

Ako: Sige.

Mommy: SIGE AH.

Ako: HAHAHA HINAHAMON MO BA 'KO

Second Year First Sem Lesson: 'Wag matulog sa klase every meeting. HAHA

GAH GEs YOU SUCK huhu sad grades, sad grades

Post first sem whatever

Three words. CWTS, Acads, and Chemsoc.

CWTS because RAPPELLING IS THE SHIT YO. I'm still afraid of heights but thanks to CWTS they helped me face my fear. I'm now more afraid of heights than ever.

Acads...do I even have to go through this. We, Chem majors eat lab reports for breakfast and snacks. And haha, org chem sucks.

I can't even begin to explain how <insert adjective here> the Chemsoc app process was. I'm not even at liberty to explain how the whole thing happened. Easily takes the cake for all the drama and fun from this sem. Emphasis on drama. [Haven't cried so much due to real life in a looooong time]

Chem 33

Last night I realized how messed up my org chem scores were. I laughed it off. Then earlier I totally just messed up the finals. Yay for today

I will die early

This afternoon I evaluated my own eating habits and I came into conclusion that I will die with one or two, or all of these illnesses:

1. Colon cancer because I don't eat vegetables.

2. High blood pressure - since I don't eat vegetables, I only eat meat which I think isn't healthy but YOLO. I may not eat fats but I love chicharon so much more than people.

3. Hyperacidity / Ulcer / Diabetes - I LAV COKE

James Morrison, Foster the People, Keane

They're reminding me how poor I am. Huhuhu why October why

Hahahahahah everyone found the exam pretty easy while I was just standing there...smiling. :)

Tangina 'di ko alam kung pang-ilang bilyong beses ko na 'tong tintype sa kung saan-saan pero uulitin ko ulit ngayon. Try ko naman sanang mag-aral minsan. =)) Pero feeling ko may dahilan naman ako kaya hindi ako naka-focus kahapon. Pero next time ko na lang gagawing outlet 'to. Kasi ang lungkot lungkot lungkot talaga.

ALL IZZ WELL

Grabe, taeng-tae na ako sa kaba para bukas. Di ko alam kung ano ieexpect, wala pa akong gagawin. 'di pa ayos yung group namin...huhu sana matapos ko 'tong weekend ng buhay :(( Wait, dapat pala positivity lang. Kasi, yung title.

WOO KAYA NAMIN 'YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN! <:-P

I've probably thought about quitting a million times by now but with all the effort and time I've already exerted and wasted I shouldn't be allowing those thoughts in my head, especially now that the end is pretty near. Wait, no, but still...it's been a long semester (and quite fun actually) and looking back I just couldn't allow those tears and sleepless nights get rewarded. I'd probably should just give it one last push until the very end of this week. Plus, I must pay attention already to my grades I don't want to be delayed for a year grabe lang.

PAULINE!!!!!!!!!

Dito rin, para fun. Ayaw lang kitang batiin sa twitter tho, di ako bumabati dun masyado eh =)) K.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(Hot!!!) Pink para maalala mong woman ka na.  Sana, ano, um.......magkaroon ka na ng course. Tas sana rin matupad lahat ng pangarap at hangarin mo sa iyong masayang buhay. Kahit weirdo pa 'yan at hindi pang tao, suportanta ka (namin). HOHOHO. Happy birthday!!

Masakit sa mata basahin, I know. =))

WELCOME SEPTEMBERRRRRR

A day late haha but yesterday was way too awesome that I had to hit the sack immediately when I got home. TWELVE HOURS OF SLEEP BITCHEZ. Haven't had that much sleep in a while.

I couldn't take a decent picture of my burnt skin with my webcam so I just drew this:

PAINT SKILLZ YO. That's my arm btw. And that's a sunburn, not blood or mud. Same thing with my face, neck and legs hoho. This is a long caption for a shitty image wth.

I played frisbee yesterday!!! And tug-of-war. Both....lost hoho. We didn't have much players so everyone played whatever they could play. Other institutes had so many people... while the Institute of Chem was so underrepresented (big word!!) :((

Anyway, I hope that the last four months of this year will be the best! Time to fix my shitty grades....been having way too many failed exams for the past weeks. -_- And ahhh ChemSoc! The app process has been so memorable.. chos parang tapos na mahaba pa pala =)) AND ITS THE START OF THE BER MONTHS. CHRISTMAS COUNTDOWN!!

Patty!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dito din, haha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!

ANG GALING NG PARENTS MO NAKAPAG-CREATE SILA NG AWESOME TALENTED PERSON LIKE YOU. MISS YOU HUHUHU. SANA MAGING MASAYA ANG ARAW MU. :)

There's just too much schoolwork that I want to put off so here I am again

Huhuhuhu there's so many talented people where was I when God sprinkled talent all over the world

Beyonce's a beast. And she's illuminati too okay what's the connection. I mean I felt the male equivalent of "my ovaries exploded" after this video/

This song just makes me so emotional everytime it's just ughh

See what's the result of awesome parenting DECENT, AWESOMELY TALENTED CHILDREN. They're twelve and eight btw. I'm seventeen, can't even play the guitar :(

This is the first video I've watched from his channel...been following him in Youtube and Twitter ever since hehehe

He's good looking and talented and makes good pop why isn't he famous yet. He's been around for several years alreadyy Dirty Funk came out in 2009 c'mooon

ALANIS IS BACK OKAYYYYYYY I hate when people say they like her better when she's jaded BUT WTH she's been releasing not-so-jaded songs for years move on from Jagged Little Pill people

HEHE NO WORDS NEEDED KELLY CLARKSON IS AWESOME

UGH NAGSASAWA NA AKO SA SCHOOL POSTS KO HALATA TULOY NA WALA AKONG BUHAY

CAN'T HELP IT THOUGH HEHEEHE

Liiiife

I don't even know how I'm surviving nowadays, with all these RDRs and chem stuffs that motivate me to sleep through every class. They're such an inspiration. AND THEY JUST NEVER END. Totally not helping me with life decisions...yeah still pondering about shifting out hehe.

And I'm sooooooooooo losing interest in studying; I BARELY passed my first org chem exam - already a miracle by itself considering how I studied for it - flipping through my notes like a magazine, without even worrying about catching up with my terrible quizzes.

The only thing that I'm interesed in continuing is my Chemsoc application...which, in the coming weeks, will again blow up with the coming events. And I'm sooo looking forward to theeeem.

I feel like my parents feel a bit guilty whenever I rant about being so lost in my college life since I didn't have the liberty to choose from all the courses available + I just didn't/don't know what to do with my life. Heh they were the ones who forced me to go to Pisay eh.

I LOVE RUN-ON SENTENCES

TANGINIS TALAGA YUNG MGA GANITONG PICTURE

MAGHANAP NGA KAYO NG MGA KANI-KANIYANG BUHAY PUNYETA

Di ko alam kung bakit ako sobrang affected. =)) PERO PESTE TALAGA EH

These little hours, these twists and turns of faith

*Ang corny ng title*

"ONE OF THE BEST NIGHTS EVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR DASLKJFAL;JAL;JF feeling ko hindi ako makakatulog sa sobrang saya kldjglak;jg"

Hehe twitter.

Huhuhu I just can't contain my feelings I've been slapping pillows around for ten minutes now. Last time I could recall being in this mood was when I saw my last high school Math perio. All of those sleepless nights, tears shed and back-to-back failing org chem quizzes were completely forgotten by the end of Chemsoc's Festival Week earlier I just can't sdlgjdal;gjalkgjlj :(( I know there's so much more to come but whatever cherish the moment dammit

*EDIT*

Haha look at the post below.

Stress, stress, stress and uh, more stress

Dear God dear Lord why did I decide to join Chemsoc motherfucking shit this week i can't even. Oh, and may I just remind myself, meron ka pang RDR na due sa Wednesday. And it looks like you won't be having much time to do that, considering na NAGCHECHEMSOC ka leche.

Finding a way for my brain to function for some chem paper shizznackles

....Nope, not working at all. Way too distracted and unmotivated.

One yearrrrrr

More than a year has passed yet I still clearly remember how I finished our STR paper without even backreading it after it was done; six revisions took place before Sir Alcarez finally accepted our paper. I'm not saying this because I miss high school, but because I actually realized that that momentous event in my high school life actually happened more than a year ago already. A few months after that, I entered UP Diliman as a Chemistry freshman. Not that I'm regretting it, but I'm still not liking it.

Tomorrow, I have to face the sad reality that I'm not a freshman anymore, and the fact that I have to listen to Chem profs for at least three hours every weekday, except Mondays. Mondays are allotted for CWTS DMST, also known to me as what-the-hell-did-I-just-put-myself-into subject.

Looking back, studying in UP Diliman for a whole academic year, including summer, made me realize these:

1. I've appreciated long walks more. In UPD, who wouldn't. Except if there exists super rich kids who are ferried from building to building by their own drivers.

2. I got lazier, more prone to burnout, and my procrastination skills improved like never before. Four high school years of being forced to learn difficult things you don't even want to know is already exhausting, and again being subjected to another four years of almost the same thing, just multiply the degree of difficulty by a thousand, is borderline forced child labor already.

3. Pisay advantage their fez. Probably there will be if you're one of the amazingly smart guys but no, I'm not one of them and that advantage doesn't exists for me. However, I'd like to think that I'm not just "utilizing" it, but whenever I try to study makes me realize otherwise.

4. Things are harsher in college. I know, this is common knowledge, but things are really harder. Enlisting pa lang, jusko.  I forced myself to wake up really early just to get to UP really early just to be one of the first people to line up to get a subject then learning that there's no way for you to get that subject forces you  to run back and forth from building to building then afterwards waiting for more than five hours to get a replacement for that subject is sad.

5. I became more socially retarded in college. Hope things will change when I join an org, because I always get a lot of  "Meron kang sariling mundo." Good thing I have old friends and blockmates.

And because I don't know how to end this I'm gonna leave a picture of a cat here, because I really want to own one.

My dog is glowing

Both of my dogs took a bath earlier, and Luffy's soooo white he looked like a spirit dog running around the house. I couldn't resist tying a red ribbon around his neck because it would look so good on him.

Here's the world wide debut of my 5-year old azkal. Excuse my face please.

I hope this isn't animal abuse

HA SUMMER CLASSES ARE OVER

I totally want to restrain myself from ranting about how I epicly made a mistake during the finals yesterday since I'm tired of doing such things and blogging/tweeting about it afterwards but I just couldn't contain my feelings (HAHAH NOT GC OKAY I HAVE BAD GRADES) so imma keep it short but bitter:

[rant]I didn't distribute the minus sign. So everything went shit due to that. My answer was obviously incorrect but I didn't had a brain at that moment. That was...five points I think.[/rant]

Well that sounded calm.

Anyhow, I will now take this moment to welcome myself for about two weeks of vacation (aka being a bum around the house) before I go to UP again for enrollment. WELCOME SELF!

FRUSTRATED

SHIT CAN MY LIFE JUST SORT ITSELF OUT WITHOUT ME ACTING ON IT I DON'T KNOW HOW THIS GOES WITH THE TITLE IT DOESN'T SOUND LIKE FRUSTRATION BUT YES I AM FRUSTRATED SHIT

OR PROBABLY I'M JUST OVER THINKING

STILL LKAJDAL;KGJAKLGJA L

I don't know why but I seem to lack motivation in almost everything.

Especially studying.

Hehe.

Your argument is invalid

Paano ka sasagot sa nanay mo 'pag nagsimula ka nang makipag-away at gagantihan ka ng: "Palibhasa hindi mo alam kung anong hirap ng pagpapalaki sa'yo! Kahit nagtatrabaho ako inaalagan kita.......Hindi mo alam yung hirap nung gabing pinanganak kita sa ilalim ng puno ng mangga, kasabay ng pag-ire ko ang kulog at kidlat na nagmumula sa nagngingitngit na kalangitan. Kami lamang ng ama mo nung gabing iyon; baha na ang mga lansangan kaya't hindi na nagawa ng tricycle ng tatay mong itawid ako patungo sa health center.....okay, walang nangyaring ganyan.

Pero wtf, ang lakas maka-change topic.

Hushushahahashuhushu

Ugh this day I can't even...aklg;jadsklgj

I can't believe how I can be so stupid gaaaaaaaaaaaah it's getting wayyy too frustrating. I don't know how I am able to forget EXTREMELY important stuff, to leave out items during exams (God it's Math 53 finals all over again), to be absentminded during critical times.....

And just in time with my depressed state good news came rolling in once I set foot in my house earlier when I came back from school - my mother, in essence, gave me the news that the coming weeks will be more unbearable than usual. Ugh, awesomeness, can't wait.

Another. Kelly Clarkson. Post

Yep. Kelly Clarkson covered a frikkin RADIOHEAD song. YEP. RADIOHEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD. And she picked a classic oneee

How could I possibly love her even moreeee. She already covered The White Stripes, Coldplay and now thisssss whattttttttt

Why are other people so talented if I had her voice I'd just sing to myself for all eternityyy

HAHA FUTURE WTF

Totally random post but serious post coming. Oh wait so far everything in this blog are all random nonsense, so there was no need for a disclaimer.

ANYWAY
I AM AGAIN CONSIDERING TO SHIFT OUT OF CHEM
BUT THEN AGAIN, I DON'T KNOW WHERE
THEREFORE, I'LL STAY
BUT I KIND OF REALLY WANT TO

MONTHS EARLIER, I HAVE DECIDED TO NOT SHIFT OUT
AND STICK WITH CHEM
BUT WITH THE WAY THINGS ARE GOING
I DON'T KNOW ANYMORE
I GOT A TWO IN CHEM 17

WHICH ISN'T REALLY BAD
CONSIDERING HOW NOTORIOUSLY HARD THAT SUBJECT IS
BUT STILL I'M STARTING TO HATE CHEM
AS MUCH AS I HATE BIO
AND MATH

HOWEVER, I'LL STILL TRY TO STICK AROUND
GOD PLEASE HELP ME DECIDE
ALTHOUGH I THINK I WON'T SHIFT ANYMORE
I'M JUST MAKING THINGS COMPLICATED
FOR MYSELF

Life without internet makes you realize that..

1. Life is more boring and repetitive.
2. You've got so much time on your hands.
3. You haven't actually watched and listened to all the stuff you downloaded off the internet.
4. I still couldn't finish Pulp Fiction though; tinatamad talaga ako tapusin.

Ayun. I've been walking to this internet shop for three days now, just to stay connected with the world. And hahaha ang bababa ng grades ko fuck it

Clannad akldjalgj ugh my emotions

So I just finished watching Clannad's second season last night. And I almost gave up on life from  watching Episode 16 onwards. So...much...tears. Good thing the ending was a happy one, or else I could've gone into depression for a week.

The end was pretty confusing even though I understood the story pretty well and how Tomoya got to make one wish. But after reading some posts about it I finally made some sense from the ending. Nonetheless, the most important thing is everything went fine. I seriously won't stop crying all night if the series didn't end that way.

The first season was also great! There were a couple of episodes where I couldn't just stop crying.

Hahahaha I know I never thought I'd cry over an anime...but I just did. The art was really good. I liked their humongous eyes so much.

Ugh the whole series totally played with my emotions I can't even...jldkjalkjgd. Best anime series I've watched so far! And I've watched three so....far. Huwhahaha

College = hell

School has been wayyyy too demanding these past few...months. This week and the last one especially. Turns out the hardships in Pisay were just a slight preview of how hard college will be. I can't see myself finishing school with the current state of my own study habits, cramming abilities, mental capacity and sanity.

FIRST YEAR PA LANG AH. I can't bear to think of what's in store for me in the following years.

Anyway, hi blog. Haven't been here in a while.

Can someone, please, someone, give me a billion dollars so I could just quit school already.

Chem 17

The exam earlier deserves a special post like this.
I totally bombed that one. Bomb in a...bad way. For the first time though, I really didn't feel depressed or worried, partly because I didn't study for it that much. Scratch that, it's more like I studied but it is almost like not studying at all. (what's new, haha) The the other part...well I don't know yet. But these may be the reasons:

(1) I just grew tired of thinking about things.
(2) I'm too preoccupied about other things.
(3) I'm just tired.
(4) I just don't care at all this time.

I guess it's more likely the fourth one.

And this ends my new half-baked and incomplete post.

It may not seem like it, but I'm already tired. Really...tired. I want to get over with college already.

But then again, I don't know how I would handle the life outside school; I bet it would be more difficult than this.

February!!

Wow one week down in February already. Parang kahapon, kumakain lang ako ng carbonara dahil nag-New Year na...*:((*

It's been a while since I made my last post! So..hmm what has been happening to my life since then:
1. My downward spiraling scores in PE...and in other subjects as well.
2. My equally worsening sleeping cycle.
3.Thaaat's pretty much it. :D

Aaaand because my own tardiness and stellar procrastination skills aren't enough to further distract me from my nonexistent study habits, I made a tumblr account!

TUMBLR

I've been reading some tumblr blogs for quite a while now, and finally I've gotten around to create my own! +1 to my social networking activity wooooo

Teenager problems! Ugh.

On a brighter note, I don't have much work to do tonight. Well...because I'd be putting off majority of them for tomorrow. It's just that, I love Chem-related stuff too much - I want to delay doing them as much as possible. ♥

Chem RDR, gray skies and my even gray-er mood. Amazing day