Best

The past four to five weeks of my life will certainly go down as one of the most memorable moments of this year. I entered the organizing committee of our college's sportsfest expecting lots of stress and struggle, and definitely I got that and more. It was such a draining experience, but definitely a great one.

Never have I experienced loads of stress, disappointment, anxiety, depression and fun all at the same time. KaSCIyahan just ended two days ago, but it feels like this is just the start of something awesome. Even though we didn't achieve maximum participation from our institute, nonetheless, I've never felt so attached to them. Who would've thought I'd work this hard for an academic institution I've despised to enter.

There's still so much feelings to write about, but it would take a good hour for me to write them all down so I'd settle with this piece for now. Congratulations, Institute of Chemistry for winning the KaSCIyahan championship three times in a row! Never been this proud. Still on high after the announcement of winners two nights ago. Haha I love winning.

Mind reading

It was never easy for me (well I guess, for anybody) to figure out how other people feel or think based on their actions. Except of course if one day I'll be like Professor X, which is pretty impossible to happen as I am definitely far away from being that awesome. But if I were, not only I'd be able to know how ~you~ actually feel and think [about me], but I'll also be able to get a perfect score in my third Math exam to actually get a grade of 3.00. (hehe delinquent student right heree)

It's the not-knowing that actually bothers my mind. My chem knowledge, coupled with some machines could only interpret signals given off by unknown organic compounds, not feelings of people. (Gusto ko lang talaga isingit na may chem knowledge ako) If only they could invent spectrophotometers for people, that would actually be useful.

Maybe stress is good....

... eventually. Baka totoo nga naman yung metaphor na madalas ginagamit - carbon turns into diamond through lots of pressure and stress, just like people. Oo, ako yung carbon 'tas magiging diamond ako sa huli. Ewan, baka lang naman, positive thinking. Kasi ngayong iniisip ko, bakit ko hinahayaan yung sarili kong tanggapin lahat ng trabahong ito na sa una pa lang naman ay tinanggihan ko na. Pangalawa, masama na kung masama, pero kung tutuusin, wala naman itong balik sa akin, kundi yung bullshit na "fulfillment." Oo, kailangan ko ng fulfillment, pero sana sa undergraduate course at magiging career ko, hindi yung sa mga gawain na ultimately ang tanging pabuya lang ay pampaganda ng resume... tiaka nga daw, "fulfillment."

Actually nagrarant lang ako. Pero kahit ano namang pag-iisip na gagawin ko, hindi pa rin naman hihinto ang mundo para makinig sa problema at mga kaartehan ko sa buhay. Katulad ngayon, in 30 minutes, kakain na ako. In one hour, maliligo na ako. At in two hours, (assuming na hindi ako malalate ng 20 minutes, kagaya ng um, lahat ng mga nakaraang araw) nasa MS 220 class na naman ako ni Ma'am McGlone na maaari kong maging thesis adviser.

Kaya nga naisip ko, na baka nga maging diamond din ako sa huli. You know, hard. Haha iba pala yun. Pero sabi nila, experience 'yan. Sabi nila. Pero lahat naman ng bagay na napagdaanan natin, stressful man o hindi ay experience lahat. Next time, kung irarason niyo 'yan sa akin, sabihin niyo naman kung good o bad experience, lagyan niyo ng adjective. Hindi sapat yung noun lang.

Wala na akong sense 'no? Haha gutom na ako eh. Tangina sana matapos na 'tong experience na ito.