Grades, grades, grades

Ito na yata yung moment na dapat nanghihinayang ako dahil hindi pa ako naging University Scholar,  konti na lang kasi, pero dalawang bagay ang pumasok sa utak ko:

• Hindi ko naman talaga in-expect na magiging College Scholar ako. Pero, well, nung dumarating yung grades ko tsaka ko narerealize na may chance pala. At ngayon, .0368 away ako from being a University Scholar. Isang step lang talaga sa kahit aling subject. :|
• First time kung makakuha ng ganitong GWA. HAHAHAHAHAHAH.

Kaya ayun, I felt happy for myself. Hahahahah I actually have something to be happy about for a week. Then I realize I know there's a huge chance my irresponsible self will still prevail the next semester, preventing me from maintaining this status. Add to that the fact I actually have to face my three most-hated subjects this coming semester: Calculus, Bio and a harder Chemistry. (I'm BS Chem btw)

Math classes every 7AM. Next sem. :(
And Pisay registrar gahh you totally just made me hate you. Well not really hate, like hate-hate. But uh, kinda hate. Or whatever. I don't know.

Guitar!

I changed the strings of my guitar to nylon ones, so it will become a bit softer and less painful for my  fingers.

After months of forgetting that I actually want to learn how to play guitar, I'll once again try to, hope this time I'll be more successful.

The problem now is...how will I tune it properly, now I completely changed the strings. @-)

Anyway, so far my hibernation plan doesn't seem to work out too well. I wasn't able to stay in the house for the past three days as much as I would love to, because, I went out with friends and PISAY DIDN'T GIVE MY FORM 137 TO UP. (!!!)

Gah hope they'll give it tomorrow, alreadyyyy. Kasi, medyo enrollment na next week. :|

HIBERNATION

Starts now.

A night of fun and embarassment

Sarah's grand debut celebration!
Details, soon, since I'm not in the mood to write now, but the title kinda says it all.
Camia love ♥

Random musings

• I feel like I'm the only one left using Firefox. 
• HIBERNATE! Starting next week. No going out or anything. Gonna spend some quality time with my bed ♥
• I'll be hiding in my house like how a vampire hides in his coffin during broad daylight.
• Well of course there are exceptions, but other than those, the main plan is to hibernate. Like a cute little bear.
• The previous three items are of the same topic, but...whatever.
• I had a dream some night ago that my mother was pregnant. It was...super, duper freaky. Considering how old she is.
• Ang sarap ng Hany. Yung chocnut! Hindi na pala white and red ang cover. Orange and red na. Amehahazing.
• I cry whenever I think of my schedule next sem. 7AM Calculus classes, Tuesday to Friday. I repeat. 7AM. CALCULUS. TUESDAY TO FRIDAY.
• Can teachers give the grades to CRS alreadyy
• Even though I don't want to go out, I really, really, want to see...a blockmate. Hahahahahahahah :|

It's kind of a funny story

I just finished watching this movie, and for the first time, I disagreed with RottenTomatoes.com's consensus about it. Well of course, different people, different opinions, but I was really able to relate with Craig, thus, I found the movie a lot more than "mildly entertaining."

I kind of get Craig's feeling about things. I get into sudden bouts of depression from time to time with apparently no deep reason. Of course, it doesn't mean there's no reason at all, but the small things that get to you could pile up and just put you into a situation where you'll go emo and feel suicidal (well, not really. Alam kong madalas kong sabihing gusto ko nang mamatay, pero, I really don't mean that)

But the bottomline is, people really need social capital (NUKS SOCIO 10 ♥) in order to get by life. People where you can really open up to and just be yourself. And another thing, you've just got to go for the things you'd really like. Seriously, if I have Craig's drawing ability and discovered it during my stay in Pisay, I'll totally get out of high school and go somewhere...art-sy.

Unfortunately, I don't have that. Add to that my inability to figure out what I really want to become, and what I am capable of doing. That thought just makes me depressed.

Sembreak!

Finally, the semester's over!!!! Time for some well-deserved break from school-stuff (as if I actually exerted lots of effort for that)

Well, there's still a couple of things left *ehem* Socio 10 *ehem, but hoo, haa, whatever, I'm just happy (almost) all of the shit are done.

For now, I'll just leave every mistake and crap that I did during the first semester, and just start over for the next one. I know I should be using the coming weeks to prepare for Chem 17 and yeah, but what, with my amazing procrastination skills and stellar irresponsibility, that's least likely to happen.

now forgetting:

• how i amazingly bombed this semester (too late to contemplate about)
• useless geology crap (takes too much brain space)
• and other humiliating things

And, yes! SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP

So where was the passion when you need it the most?

It's been a bad day for me. Well, yes, it's not the worst day that I had, but this is one of those irritating, frustrating, ajg;alkgj-ing days that I really hate.

It all started early in the morning, when my mom brought up a petty quarrel between us, the way she does most of the time. And the reason's sooooo shallow! Yet, I'm still the one at fault. Of course it's gonna be me, nothing new. Just when I wanted to bring in the good vibes for the Math long exam; she totally scrapped all those good vibes I've collected in the bathroom while taking a bath.

Second, well, Math long exam. Yeah I'd fail that. I had two items with no final answer, one item with an epicly crappy answer because I didn't know how to evaluate it further, all in a majorly trashy blue book as a whole.

Then I lost some amount of money...again.

And those little things that just make matters slightly worse!
A tricycle didn't notice me, and drove the other direction. I had to wait longer before another one arrived.
A stupid car parked right in front of our house, as if it's his house.
And all those other things that happened earlier but I just can't remember.

Okay, I just wanted to get these stuff out of my mind, so I can totally start with Geol, which I really know nothing about but we have a long exam tomorrow so I have to study.

College

Only one thing came across my mind, while looking back into the past five months of my first year -  college will be extremely tough. I know it's supposed to be common knowledge, but the magnitude of stress that I experience now totally caught me by surprise. I knew from the start that it won't be easy, but I didn't expect it to be this hard.

I've been trying to think of a reason why I seem to lack motivation to actually do better in studying, yet the only thing that I can actually deduce is that I dread of how uncertain I am of the path I'm currently taking. And even myself think that this is a bit shallow.

Sigh. Oh well. So much for finding a way to procrastinate.

;lkadhg;lakghaglh

CHEM EXAM!! lsajgalkgjalgkjdlk;ja

So, uh...my Math grade is low. My Chem grade seems to be worse than my Math. EVERYTHING'S SEEMS TO BE BAD.

Where was the Pisay advantage they were speaking of?
HOHOHOHO I knew from the start there's no such thing for me. Hehe

And another thing: MY UMBRELLA'S BROKEN. Huhuhuhu pa'no na 'yaaan