I was just only able to delay posting this

Just this once, maybe you can put your head to rest and be still for a while. You are 21, essentially a big kid drowning in optimism that you could take your life somewhere fulfilling. I'm sure taking the first step of your career stresses you to your wits, especially if your desired path does not seem to present itself clearly as you would like. But a single step is a minute fraction of a bigger picture, because life, as you know it is a confusing multitude of intertwining tracks.

Just this once, maybe let go, or at least, temporarily let go of what you are hoping to happen. I know you find it hard to take in when people tell you "what's yours will be yours," because for you, destiny seems to be an unnecessary romantic idea. But stranger things have happened during the course of history, a lot of which were never predicted nor planned. So instead of destiny, believe in possibilities. Maybe taking that first opportunity will unlock your desired path, or carve a better path for you. Possibilities are endless, and more often than not, they can take you where you can never think of.

Just this once, maybe drop your defenses and accept things how they are. They say that anxiety does not come from thinking about the future, but believing that you can take control of it. But a single person is not enough to dictate a lifetime; a single body is not strong enough to steer a ship travelling through tumultuous waves caused by how perplexing life is. Perhaps this is why an old poet wrote the phrase "Carpe diem" - because really, you cannot plan tomorrow and put your trust in it.

Just this once, maybe stop at comparing your self from your colleagues who seem to be in good places. Just this once, take a hold of what is actually in front of you. Life can get pretty undesirable and what you only have is a spark that only fresh graduates possess. For now, try to keep that. I guess, fulfilling different dreams happen at their own pace, and sometimes, they get delayed too.