The universe might be on to something for me. That, or I'm just an unlucky bastard

Maybe, just maybe, the universe is conspiring to tell me that, hey kid, stop looking for something else and be patient. That it will eventually grant me what I have thought about and wanted in the first place, to make up for almost a decade that felt like devoid of inspiration and actual motivation. That it is purposely letting me down for one last time to make me feel a heightened sense of gratitude when the time comes that it grants me my prize.

But then again, I might just be an unlucky fellow. I for one, never looked for signs, so why am I thinking about this now.